Dear Pat,

Hi Pat, I’m a loyal Connacht fan just wanting to let you know the impact you have had on me personally and to say thanks for it.

When I stood in Murrayfield reflecting on my day I couldn’t help but reflect on the impact that rugby and Connacht Rugby has had on my life, both emotionally and even more so mentally. Like Connacht I have endured some tough times, and at times it became too much for me. I have suffered with depression for many years now, but it was reaching a head in the spring of 2016. I had suffered a few family bereavements over the previous years that had made me question my faith and my beliefs, and had left me very low. However, I had always succeeded personally in my education and that was always a source of pride and happiness for me. In the 2015-16 academic year I had begun my final year in college. As a result of an accumulation of family issues as well as pressure with my studies things were beginning to get the better of me.

In my first semester I failed two of my exams and was really questioning what I wanted to do with myself. Over the coming weeks and months I became totally dejected and spent a number of weeks in February to March totally isolated from my friends and family. I never felt safe discussing how I felt with anyone. I began sleeping during the day and getting up and staying awake during the night so I wouldn’t have to be in contact with anyone. I would go down to the shop at six in the morning to get food and then retreat into my room in college for the remainder of the day, I stopped going home at the weekends, and talking to my family.

I had long been questioning whether I wanted to continue at all; at this point I had totally dropped away from my studies and spent the day just sitting in bed. I had become resigned to my fate and was in contemplation on ending my life. The only glimmer of hope and escape from my reality was when I could switch off and get behind something I believed in, Connacht Rugby. While I thought about suicide I had decided I would wait until I had finished college and Connacht’s season had concluded.

Thankfully a turning point came. For me, as silly as it may sound, it was when Connacht beat Munster, a game I was due to go to with a friend from college, a Munster fan, but I had stopped replying to his messages in order to remain alone. There were many reasons this became a turning point; the first was in the manner the team performed and how they conducted themselves, they had fallen behind but never relented, never threw in the towel, never surrendered. The second was actually something that was said after the game by you. In the video posted by Connacht after the game you discussed the darkness into light run you had led in Galway that morning. You spoke of how there is always hope. This was something that I had forgotten as I hadn’t seen this with my own eyes. But here in front of me was the proof, Connacht Rugby.

Following the game I decided to go home, the first time in weeks I had faced my family (I usually returned home every weekend and talked on the phone to my Mother every few days). I had told them that I had lots of college work and only texted them a couple of times during this time. I was relieved and delighted to be back, back helping my father on the farm, a job I had usually hated. It was from here that things became easier for me. I then got back in contact with my friends. I returned to college after a week or so at home so I could sort out deferring my college year. I talked to my friends to try to explain what was going on.

From here things improved greatly. I sat among my friends watching the Connacht v Glasgow game with multiple screens going so they could all follow their own teams that day. When we managed our victory and guaranteed a home play-off I was ecstatic. Having already purchased my ticket for Edinburgh following the Munster game, I now set my eyes on Galway. I traveled down with a number of my mates from college, none actually Connacht fans but Munster and Leinster fans, they had no tickets but wanted to share in the moment with me in Galway that day.

On that day I walked into the Sportgrounds, I was nervous but at the same time confident, a reflection on how I felt about my future also. When we managed to secure the win I felt sure it was now to be. I now needed to secure my travel to Edinburgh as a number of friends were supposed to travel and details needed to be finalised. My journey to Murrayfield was long, but field with a hope I had scarcely believed was possible just a few months prior. I journeyed from my home to Dublin, in order to get the Ferry to Wales (not a direct route I know but it got me there), I traveled by train from Holyhead via Manchester and York, taking 23 hours total. I was totally wrecked but yet wide eyed in expectation.

As I met up with friends outside Murrayfield, who had made other travel arrangements as part of a pre-planned trip to Edinburgh, I wasn’t hopeful. This is because I didn’t just hope we would win I was sure of it. As we watched the Connacht team come off the bus and walk into the stadium my emotions were at maximum, and the hairs on my neck were standing to salute Mul and his band of often disregarded warriors. On that day we did as I expected, brought more passion and humility to an occasion that was scarcely believable years earlier. In fact at the 2013 final I watched among Ulster fans in the RDS saying that I had to come because this was maybe as close as I would get to a Pro12 victory, even as a proud Connacht man I didn’t think what was to unfold was possible despite the heroics of that season.

As I watched the players put in a performance that totally eclipsed anything even an expectant fan could have dreamed of, it was now in no doubt we had done it. As I witnessed John hoist that trophy aloft I shed a tear, in reflection of what was the most complete moment of happiness I have ever been so lucky to endure.

The reason why Connacht Rugby has become so much more than just my local team is due to the circumstances that surround us a province. Often forgotten and disregarded, but never faltering in an unwavering belief. A team built on more than just rugby talent, built on solid foundations of great morals. Men like John Muldoon, and guys like Mick Swift and Eric Elwood before him reflect this ethos, respect, humility, empathy, passion, loyalty, community, heart. These are morals you strengthened in this team, made more pertinent to the task at hand. These are traits I hope to emulate. Having been without hope, feeling forgotten much like Connacht circa 2001. I now have a greater sense of self-belief, and all the other things you taught me through Connacht Rugby. I now aim to rise from the ashes and achieve all that I am capable of. As a result of your tenure in charge of something so dear to me I believe that is more possible.

On this day I must also thank Ronan Loughney, Danny Qualter, Danie Poolman, Shane O’Leary, Nepia Fox-Matamua, Lewis Stevenson, Ivan Soroka, Rory Moloney, John Cooney, Rory Parata and Josh Rowland for pulling on that jersey and doing it service. I wish them every success in the future. In particular Locks, a man that encapsulates everything that is so good about Connacht, representing his home province with distinction on every occasion, culminating with an excellent role anchoring our scrum in our finest hour, you will be sorely missed but never once forgotten and always appreciated.

I can never express how much you have done for me, even though the only contact I have ever had with you was to pat your back on my way to the bathroom before the Glasgow play-off game and say good luck. I am uncertain of whether this message will reach you, but I had to try to say thank you for what you have done for me. I will be in the Sportgrounds tonight cheering on my team with every fibre of my being, but a certain part of me will be very solemn, in the knowledge that you are gracing the hallowed turf of the Sportgrounds for quite possibly the final time.

I truly wish you every success in the future, I hope that you can bring the same feelings to many Bristol fans, and make the same impact as you have made on me to them, and as you have surely made on countless other in Connacht like me. You, as I am sure you are aware an more than just a mere mortal to the people of Sligo, Leitrim, Roscommon, Mayo and Galway. Truly, I am humbled to have had you coach my team.

Slán leat, agus go raibh míle maith agat!

So much change. You can't simply change every line and learn anything IMO. I am not knocking change but you can't change everything. Because you learn peanuts. No one line has played together so I find this selection useless. Yes I want change. So everything is changed. So we are left clueless at the end of the game. What worked, what didn't. Who is to know.. Every single line selected on this Connacht team has a question mark. So how as a coach can you figure which one line is at fault. We have a new outhalf with a new scrum half. We have a centre combo that will never be our centre combo, we have two wingers who have not played for a hell of a while. Andrew Brown is the new captain. I simply cannot understand. This is bizarre. we are trying to figure out how to win a semi-final and we field this team to give some direction?

My last word on the Bundee issue, I heard on the radio this morning that Fellani is expected a 3 week match ban for head-butting Aguero last night (apologies for spelling mistakes, I don't watch soccer, its like watching paint dry). I just thought it an interesting comparison with the same result.

Onto the scarlets game tomorrow. There are interesting combos in every single area of the field. Hard to say how so many changes in one fell swoop will work out but I am looking forward to it.

Love that backrow, and like the look of the back three, be good to see what Boschoff is like properly. Not expecting a win with 10 changes and another different center partnership. But hopefully a decent performance.

And remember na na na na na na na na Leader!

4 James Cannon

4 Jake Ball

We've all been waiting for it ...

Interesting team, great to see Kelleher and especially Leader back, that would be my first choice back 3 if everyone was fit and firing. Finally a chance to see what Boshoff's like, probably not ideal to have centre partnership number 11 (probably) of the year outside him.

Good to see Denis getting a rest, it'll be good to have another look at Robertson-McCoy, he needs to offer a bit more around the park for me. Have Cannon and Browne started together before? Lineout should be good but I wonder will we lack a bit of grunt around the park. Excited to see Masterson in action again, that could be our backrow for years to come so I'm hoping to see a big game from them

Scarlets have rotated a bit in the backs (which means they have a tasty set of backs replacements) but the pack is as close to full strength as injuries permit.

15 Johnny Mcnicholl, 14 Liam Williams, 13 Jonathan Davies, 12 Hadleigh Parkes, 11 Steff Evans, 10 Rhys Patchell, 9 Jonathan Evans, 1 Rob Evans, 2 Ken Owens ©, 3 Samson Lee, 4 Jake Ball, 5 Tadhg Beirne, 6 Aaron Shingler, 7 Will Boyde, 8 John Barclay

Replacements; Ryan Elias, Wyn Jones, Werner Kruger, David Bulbring, Josh Macleod, Gareth Davies, Scott Williams, DTH van der Merwe

And start he does ...

www.connachtrugby.ie/connacht-team-to-fa...lets-8/#ConnachtNews

15 Tiernan O’Halloran (125)
14 Darragh Leader (51)
13 Tom Farrell (7)
12 Eoin Griffin (77)
11 Cian Kelleher (11)
10 Marnitz Boshoff (2)
9 Caolin Blade (43)

1 Finlay Bealham (80)
2 Dave Heffernan (82)
3 Dominic Robertson-McCoy (9)
4 James Cannon (15)
5 Andrew Browne (153) (captain)
6 Sean O’Brien (37)
7 Jake Heenan (52)
8 Eoghan Masterson (36)

Replacements:

16 Shane Delahunt (26)
17 Denis Buckley (116)
18 JP Cooney (48)
19 Quinn Roux (55)
20 John Muldoon (300)
21 John Cooney (37)
22 Craig Ronaldson (65)
23 Danie Poolman (83)

It's a day for the injury comebacks.
Great to see Leader back in action.

We really need Boshoff to start tomorrow night.

Shelflife wrote: He didnt punish it at the time because the final straw was after the full time whistle, when Bundee seemingly said something to Davis as he walked passed him without shaking hands.

You simply cant have players abusing officials, otherwise there would be complete anarchy when you have 17st testosterone filled players flying around the pitch into each other. If theres any doubt as to who is in charge of the game then it would be carnage.

By all accounts he was petulant/rude/abusive before during and after the game. Its a tough punishment but if there isnt a proper deterrent then it leads to more trouble down the road.

Absolutely agree with this. Respect for the ref is paramount in rugby and I support any punishment to help enforce that, all you can ask for is consistency. It would be nice if blatant simulation was punished in the same way

Shelflife wrote: He didnt punish it at the time because the final straw was after the full time whistle, when Bundee seemingly said something to Davis as he walked passed him without shaking hands.

You simply cant have players abusing officials, otherwise there would be complete anarchy when you have 17st testosterone filled players flying around the pitch into each other. If theres any doubt as to who is in charge of the game then it would be carnage.

By all accounts he was petulant/rude/abusive before during and after the game. Its a tough punishment but if there isnt a proper deterrent then it leads to more trouble down the road.

Yeah in all fairness he's let his teammates​ down at an important part of the season, which is what I'm more annoyed about.

My initial reaction was ah here FFS three weeks... The fecking idiot

He didnt punish it at the time because the final straw was after the full time whistle, when Bundee seemingly said something to Davis as he walked passed him without shaking hands.

You simply cant have players abusing officials, otherwise there would be complete anarchy when you have 17st testosterone filled players flying around the pitch into each other. If theres any doubt as to who is in charge of the game then it would be carnage.

By all accounts he was petulant/rude/abusive before during and after the game. Its a tough punishment but if there isnt a proper deterrent then it leads to more trouble down the road.

salmson wrote:

Connnnnacht wrote: When you see some of the ludicrous short bans that are handed out for dangerous play on the field it really highlights how much of a joke this ban is

Bundee admitted the charge of verbal abuse of match officials under law 10.4, which carries a minimum sanction of 6 weeks. The maximum reduction you can give is 50%. So the citing committee were exceptionally lenient, and there don't seem to be grounds for appeal.

Not to be overly pedantic this wasn't a citing commission call, a citing has to happen within 72 hours of the match. This was a disciplinary panel hearing which would have different procedures. It isn't a 6 ban week reduced to 3, it's a straight 3 week ban so somewhere in the process there is something different.

Not trying to condone the actions of Bundee in anyway. Just pointing out the difference in procedures and the lack of clarity this shows in the process. Also if no other players get picked up for this type of thing, which has started creeping into the pro 12, this is kinda pointless in one way.

Connnnnacht wrote: When you see some of the ludicrous short bans that are handed out for dangerous play on the field it really highlights how much of a joke this ban is

Bundee admitted the charge of verbal abuse of match officials under law 10.4, which carries a minimum sanction of 6 weeks. The maximum reduction you can give is 50%. So the citing committee were exceptionally lenient, and there don't seem to be grounds for appeal.

When you see some of the ludicrous short bans that are handed out for dangerous play on the field it really highlights how much of a joke this ban is

Amsterdamage wrote:

connemara man wrote: Bundee banned for the next 3 matches, so the next time he'll play will be the playoff final should we make it that far

I think we can all agree that he needs to learn to hold his tongue, but this is ridiculous. 3 games for an offence the ref didn't punish at the time and was fully aware of? Clearly scapegoating him

The decision should be appealed by Connacht immediately. I have no doubts that Bundee used some choice expletives but you need a penalty that fits the crime. He should have been fined. Connachts season should not have been put at risk by his stupidity. It is absolutely ludicrous the Connacht must suffer for this. If this happened in another sport it would be a player fine. This decision is off the wall and should not be accepted